Dimensions

I have to write this post before it doesn't seem real. We spent another week in the dimension that is Bear Lake. At least that's the way it feels when we are there, like another dimension. The air is thick with promise there. One night as we drove back to the cabin, there was a thunderstorm. Sparks of light filled the sky and made the dark clouds glow. Our eyes glued to the sky, nothing was pulling us away. I spend so much of my time with my face to the clouds anyway. I looked at the sky a lot on this trip. We would lay on the beach, listening to music that made the changing clouds dance. Blue sky and blue water, it was like looking into infinity. No end and no beginning, just dimensions melting together. My darlings were all around me. I could hear parts of their conversations and other times I was part of them. One afternoon we went on the boat and stopped to swim in the clear blue water. One by one we jumped in. The water cooled us. The sun warmed us. Rocking in the boat while we listened to music soothed us. A few days later I went for a swim from shore. My body moved through the water and I felt it on each part of me. It moved against my skin, with my skin, and over my skin. My head was the only thing above water. My feet were planted in the soft sand. I could clearly see my whole body. As I turned my head to look out across the water, I let the water into my heart. Lapping waves made me bob up and down. Water is in my soul. There it will stay, right next to the sky. At night when we stood on the sand and our faces searched the heavens, I could breathe deeper. Stars speak to you. That dimension of soft velvet night that captures everything. Waves are the only thing you hear. My heart desires the capture of night, the darkness. Soon, my love, the moon hung in the velvet and moved across the night. In the light of day as I was walking back to the cabin after a long walk, I started to get closer to the cabin. The road was familiar and it started to bend towards the cabin although I could not see it yet. At that bend, I had the distinct feeling that this is what it will be like when I go to that next dimension, when I pass from this life. My eyes welled up with love. It would be just like this. Walking on a familiar road home, around the bend as you wait to see your home come into view. As the cabin came into view, I cried with love. It was a homecoming. As I got closer, I could hear my family inside making breakfast. I stopped and listened. Laughter, delicious smells, Lola barking at me, and the voices of the people that make my heart beat. They were waiting for me. I knew as soon as I stepped in I would be greeted with love. I took a moment to gather my thoughts. I looked into the cabin and it was like looking into infinity. No ending and no beginning, just dimensions melting together. I stepped in and I was home.