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Overload today. My heart can't take anymore. The world feels on fire. Something happened today that I thought was so out of reach, but it happened. I cried along with my loved ones, tears of relief. No shame in crying. It was like letting out a long breath, a long sigh of relief that was being held for years. A new path can begin today. This heavy burden is gone. Good things do happen. Such a mix of emotions today that just swirled and swirled in me. I could barely eat, so I forced some syrupy pancakes in my mouth. We felt like electric currents were in our bellies even with the good news. I guess that is how you feel when you carry something for so long and when it's done your feelings don't know quite where to land. That will be part of the new path, finding places for the feelings you thought were gone and letting go of the lead balloon. Today is our 10 year Wedding Anniversary, it mixed and swirled with today's events in a way that I will never forget. We are here together, always together. That will never change. The Sun and the Moon. Yesterday we celebrated in the mountains. Things were carefully packed in our small truck. We set up in a remote place. Soon a fire was crackling and I wandered around gathering wildflowers. I held a butterfly on my finger and named him Peter. After dinner we ended up in the hammock in silence that can only be held by love. We listened to the life around us. Birds, chipmunks and the sway of the wind. A perfect moment. On the way out on the rocky road, we chased the full moon. I grabbed his hand and told him thank you. Thank you for all of it.